Anxiety

So

the anxiety dreams are back

to be expected

I have a lot to be anxious about

things are going to start back up in the next week or so

it's time for my home study

and then

well -- I could have a placement any time after that

crazy

I'm so ready
and I'm not ready

lol

so the dreams are back

last night I dreamed about children that I took under my wing

too many
seven

and -- they had these creatures living under their skins

alien things

and we were able to pull them out

and they burst into a splash of water when they were taken out

and while I tried to manage this
I was overwhelmed

my house was a huge mess
I'm talking wading through dirt and link and dust up to my hips

and I'm filthy

and I have these things under my skin too

and I calmly remove them
I can feel them pulling out of me

as they try to cling to me
I am relentless

and they too burst into a splash of water

and when I awoke

I smiled

these dreams are normal

I have big changes coming up

huge changes

and it's perfectly normal to be worried
about what's going to happen

and how I will deal with it

and how it will affect and change me

I'm happy the anxiety dreams are back

it means that I'm moving forward again

and that's a good thing.